Friday, July 31, 2009

Random Thoughts on Why I Play Raw

So I get asked quite often why I, a negative guy, would have raw bareback sex with guys. And the question gets referenced to the fact that I am versatile. I fuck and get fucked raw. I take loads up my ass and I shoot loads up other guy?s holes.. I will fuck and get fucked by Poz guys and Neg guys. I do not discriminate in any way as to whom I decide to play with except in the fact that I must be attracted to them in some way.

So here are my random thoughts on this. What I have done, what I want to do and other comments.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

My ultimate fantasy is to be a cum dump bottom who is in a sling and has guy after guy come up and fuck and unload in my ass. I have had that fantasy for as long as I can remember. However, I have never acted on that fantasy. I have been fucked by several guys at a bathhouse before. In that scene, it was in different rooms and some used condoms and others did not. With one guy, I tried to ride down on his big muscle cock raw but he stopped me and put a condom on. He did end up shooting while fucking me, but it was all in the condom.

I have also taken a load from one guy at my place and then proceeded to head over to another guy's place and get fucked and take his load as well - without telling him. I know guys that love to use the fact they have a load in their hole as bait to get other guys to breed them as well. I have never done that yet. I do have a couple buds I play with that want to fuck me after I have taken a load. I will follow through on that eventually.

My main problem when playing is that once I cum and shoot, I am done. I have to be in a situation where I cannot cum easily so I can get fucked repeatedly. However, I get so close to shooting my load when I have a cock in my ass that it is difficult for me to not shoot and then be out of my mood.

I have been in bareback group scenes before. In these groups where there has been four or more guys, I have always been a top. I have been in threesomes where we all fucked each other raw and so I topped and bottomed.

When was the last time I used a condom? I believe it was January of this year. I was doing some groups with a two other regulars. We would get together and then find a couple other guys to join in. It was always safe in these situations. However, I have actually fucked both of those two regulars raw. They have fucked me raw. It was never together with all three of us.

I know the risks. I know that I can catch many different things. I get asked about my concern for this - or lack of concern. I really can't explain my lack of concern. I just don?t have any. I love the way my raw cock feels in an ass. I also love the reaction a guy has when he is fucking me raw. I get so turned on by his reaction and him getting into the fact that he is fucking me raw. I also get off on the fact that I can make him shoot his load inside me, and that I have his seed in me. It is a complete aphrodisiac to me. There is just something that completely gets me turned on by the whole thing.

So I fuck negative bottoms raw. I do this quite frequently as well. I am honest and say I am negative as of my last test - which was in January. I get tested every 6 months. But I don't mention the fact that I get fucked raw and take loads from neg and poz guys. I am sure the ethics on this are not in my favor. But I don't lie and say that I only top and never get fucked.

I have one regular boy I have been fucking raw. I told him recently that I was in a mood to get fucked. He is a bottom and a sub bottom at that. He would only top if I forced him as a sub and restrained him and climbed on his cock. He has told me that. I haven't done it. He has a nice thick cock and would love to feel him raw inside me. I want to get him to shoot his load in me. He shoots a nice load when I fuck him. I have never shot inside his hole though. We do talk about me doing it, but he has always shot his load first.

I love fucking and being watched. However, part of my group fear is being watched while being fucked. I have been in one group of about 10 guys where we were all pretty much versatile. We were getting fucked and fucking. We also all used condoms. This was a hot scene with all hot guys. I loved getting watched in that scene. I have just been scared of being watched while taking raw cocks with a large group of guys.